So, what's your favorite day of the week? I would assume most people would say Friday or one of the weekend days, but not me. My favorite day is Thursday. It always has been. Strange? I love the "leading up to" days...the week before vacation, the last week of school, the few weeks before Christmas, the week before school starts, and the day before the weekend begins. It's fun to anticipate, get ready and think of how wonderful the end result will be....but in all actuality, it's more often than not, a let down. It's never as awesome as I've dreamed it up to be. Perhaps I set myself up by setting my hopes too high? Maybe...it's not that the end results are bad...just not perfect...Once I've made it to Thursday, I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel....or week. I know I'm at the home stretch and I can make it no matter what the weekend brings.
It's hard to imagine heaven in my finite mind, but I know that this "leading up to" time is nothing in comparison...I couldn't even begin to imagine the greatness of eternity. When Jack and Thatcher have asked me about heaven I always tell them that it took God 7 days to create this world with every little detail in it, but he's been preparing heaven for us for over 2000 years....now that is pretty awesome.
So, for the past week we've been preparing for back to school up here. One of my favorite things to do is get new school supplies....however, this time around was quite unpleasant and anything less than stressful....I still enjoyed labeling their new things and Jack had just as much fun picking out the right color notebooks and scissors...
Tuesday will be a let down for many reasons....1. I love the ease of summer! 2. Jack will be in 2nd grade. He's ready, but I'm not so sure that I am. 3. Thatcher will be in Kindergarten...seems like he's been little forever, but now he's 6. He's not grown, but 6 is not so little either.
My mind has been JELLO this summer. My thoughts have been a fruity jumble...not worthy of blogging. Guess I'm getting back in school mode and reality is setting in. Life passes by so quickly. You blink and the newborn you just brought home from the hospital is now 15 months old and all over the place...or 8 and entering 2nd grade....and one day graduating. This is why I don't wish for the end results too quickly. I don't die for them to go back to school, or be able to drive to help out....I've learned that each stage just brings about new issues and adventures, and once a stage is gone you can never get it back. Everytime I'm close enough to one of my children to feel their heartbeats, I instantly think of seeing that beating heart on the ultrasound and what a moment that was...how long ago that seems.
So, I try to savor this "leading up to time"....though it's hard with endless laundry, and growing grocery bills...not to mention activities and church functions....I've started to rock Margaret a little longer, hug the boys a little closer, and let them giggle a little longer at night....cause this time is fleeting and the ONLY end result that's better than the "leading up to" is heaven.
sorry for the rambling...still traces of JELLO.
Living In The Shallow End....
I'm still alive. I haven't written in awhile because I just haven't felt very "thoughtful." Summer is great and I love the ease of it....I also love the weather up here...just beautiful! However, it's also hard. I am a routine person. I like schedules. When we aren't living and dying by the clock I often feel like a chicken with my head cut off. It's also difficult with 2 active boys and a 13 month old little girl. We are pretty much exsisting on her schedule of naptimes right now. I feel the guilt of not taking the boys here and there due to their little sister having to eat, nap, or because she's just fussy. However, I also feel very strongly about the boys learning to play on their own....using their imaginations and playing outside. Seems like more and more children spend their summers in camps and every sport under the sun and they just can't function unless someone is telling them what to do. In thinking about this, I'm sure it would be easier to enroll them in activities and stay on "schedule" in the summer, but we sacrifice ease for doing what we know in our hearts is right for our boys.
So, there you have it....not totally deep or thought provoking....just how we're living life these days....together.
So, there you have it....not totally deep or thought provoking....just how we're living life these days....together.
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